```smiLe aLwAyS WiTH mI!!

2009-11-26T16:22:00.002+08:00

Its back.
And thats my only reason why I'm still keeping the computer.
Ha-ha.

............

2009-09-30T01:59:00.002+08:00

Wahaha. It's 2am now.!!
Just couldn't get to sleep.
Have been lying on my bed since 1.15am.
Do you know what I like to do before sleeping.?
Well... It's.......
DREAMING.!!
Yes, Dream ~
I'm lovin IT.!
It's free & a person like me,
With a super good imagination,
Can dream what I want.
Just like transforming into a Power Ranger to save people.
Haha, it's an example though.

My mind is full of ideas,
And I just can't stop thinking, imagine it.
But why whenever when it comes,
I don't have the guts to do it.

I swear,
If I ever gona have a girlfriend again,
I'll treasure every moment with her.
I'll make her the most fortunate girl in the world.
Cause I know & I had been through losing someone you truly loved.

I MISSED F1 SO MUCH.!!!!
Goodnights pals.!!!

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[ Should I go for the 1k treatment.? ]

2009-09-03T23:49:00.000+08:00

Why can't you make someone miss you,
Instead of missing someone,
That person might not even rmb who are you,
Why are you not e one being missed?

2009-09-03T18:17:00.000+08:00

Why are the people so nice that you hope they can be your friend.
Am I to easy to get affected by this kinda thing.
I do, I miss it so much.
But asking myself,
Why am I leading this kinda life...

.........
.....
...
..
.

[You're really nice.]

2009-05-28T03:23:00.002+08:00

Move on, move on.
Yeep, compared to e past months i'm feeling so so much better.

Its 3.30am now.
Waking up at 6.30am.
Hoho.

Also dont know why i wana blog sia.
Will you still stay if they have already treated you lyke an invisible person.
Or mayb its time to look for a new one?
Think back, when you first knew them,
They listened almost everything you said.
They will ask you for advices whenever they need.
No you, no them.
Everything changes.
I thought.....
I was wrong.
Hey go sleep.!

Boo.!

2009-04-02T02:06:00.004+08:00

Thanks.
I'm alright, no worries.

Chatting with IOQ.
Caiying typed wrong.
Jiahao = Jiayou
HAHA.
Nice name yea?

Best pic ever.
Lol.

[It's really the time for me to wake up from my dream.]
.
.
.
[The day, the day have finally come.]
.
.
[All the best.]

2009-03-30T02:12:00.002+08:00

Yes,
Theres an impact the moment I heard.
Well,
Its over anyway.

Life's getting better.
Sales getting better too ya?
Did 1k plus finally.
GO GO JIAYOU HAO!

Ok, I'm going to make those who say that my planning was 'so so only' before regret.
Going off!
Lesson 2 here I come!!
Hopefully I can pass?
YEAH!

[If I'm going to choose my present, I would have to let go of the past.]

2009-03-16T00:41:00.005+08:00

Yes, time flies.

Today
Went to compass point BEST for work.
And you know,
Its my first time wearing a tie,
Walking around, compass.
*shy* ._.

Was damn high in the evening alone.
HAHA.
Although its just only that few seconds,
Its enough to brighten up my day.
And thats when my fans started to move.
._.

DON'T BE KPO LAH.!

STILL LOOK.? ._.
Haha.

Who is she? Please STOP telling me.

[ I often caught myself looking at you --
I miss you. ]

2009-03-15T01:46:00.008+08:00

Well well well.
What should I type.?
Photos ba.
Hees =]

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

You know,
That was the FIRST time i really ENJOYED myself going out with a group of GUYS.!!
Thanks to bro yea.!

-hao

[Do you know how much pain tears can bring.?]

2009-01-31T23:52:00.001+08:00

Pain-ful

=)

2009-01-07T01:25:00.001+08:00

Will there be a day,
We will be back?
Holding each other hand,
Walking together again.

Jiayou JIAYOU!

I miss you, very much.

-hao

2009-01-02T03:53:00.001+08:00

PLEASE,
I beg you.
Teach me how to stand up again.
I cant...

2008-12-25T10:43:00.001+08:00

Do you know,
Christmas wasn't a happy day for me.
25th.
Fcuk.

2008-12-01T03:04:00.002+08:00

You know,
Gaining respect from friends is not about
Treating them to eat,
Money money money.
It's from your bottom of your heart,
How well you treasure them,
How important they are to you.
They can feel it.
Right guys?

Can you feel it too?
=p

2008-11-17T01:27:00.003+08:00

You asked me why.
Why....
I dont know how to reply.

Whenever i took out my phone,
Type in your number, message,
I'll delete halfway through.

Why.
Theres alot I wanted to type here.
But i scared things get worst.
I better stop.

.
.
.

[I'll try my best to cheer you up whenever you're sad.]

Bro is sick. PEAR BRO, drink more water alright.!
Hope you will be fine when you wake up 2morow.!

Money can buy books,
But cant buy knowledge.
Money can buy sex,
But not love.

Theres something money cannot be bought.
So......
I've decided not to work 2morow,
Going somewhere else.!!

-hao
*smile*smile*smile*

2008-11-17T00:34:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY J.O.B.E.L.L.!
Am i too late.?
=P

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.

.

.

[When my room's light goes
off every night,
My brain stop generating.
And thats the only time,
My heart stop aching.]

2008-11-12T00:55:00.006+08:00

Once upon a time...

Nice.? =]]

Representing CompassPoint G2000. =]

I'll update more ya. Goodnight.!
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- - -
- -
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[Life still have to go on.]

2008-10-31T02:11:00.000+08:00

Whereareyou
..............................

2008-10-30T01:41:00.003+08:00

你终于说出口
其实你早就已经不爱我

为什么要低着头
你知道这玩笑骗不倒我

可是这不是玩笑
是要逃避你离开我的理由
我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
一心想离开我

我终于也说出口
其实很爱你但从没认真说过

或许是我的错
多在乎你却只放在心中(yeah)
不要问我为什么
因为爱你这就是我的理由
我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
没什么需要被原谅
我笑得有些牵强
你知道我总是能够假装不难过
oh不想看你那么累
多希望再给我机会
颤抖着我的手
握住的只是风

我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
一心想离开我

.....................................

There's something which is beyond our control.
Back, once again..
imy....
=(

2008-10-28T00:15:00.008+08:00

Its been long since i update my blog.

Photos photos.!

Hows the picture.?
The last one.?

Band.? =P
...................................

Still got alot but lazy lazy update.
Look at the 2nd picture.
Ah Ong should know what i'm trying to say.
HAHA.!

Ok, I'm tired.
Shall upload more photos some other days.
*BOO*

-hao

2008-10-04T16:36:00.001+08:00

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
Oh
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of your breath, I'll never get over
The noises that she made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of things that remained unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you

LALALALALALALA~~

2008-10-04T14:44:00.002+08:00

Whenever I get too excited or agitated,
You know how to clam me down.
Watching your face as you talk,
Seeing your reactions,
Makes me happy.

2008-10-03T03:39:00.002+08:00

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/253892ht.htm

Go to the link,
Look at the lyric,
Listen to the song.

What will you tell the singer?
Run! Start running to the shelther.
Ha Ha....

Trying,
I'm trying..

2008-09-27T03:24:00.000+08:00

回到我身边
可以吗?

2008-09-17T00:10:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday To Us.
Today should be the day we are waiting.

A hug is the bandage for my wounded heart.

2008-09-15T20:03:00.001+08:00

I hope you know inside,
I'm dying.

....................

2008-09-11T13:34:00.000+08:00

我不在乎天长地久,
只在乎曾经拥有.

=]

2008-08-26T12:48:00.002+08:00

Everything's back.
Time and time again...

I've tried my best.

2008-08-21T13:15:00.002+08:00

忽然又好想你啊.

Its been long since.....
Tired tired.
Can I?
=)

2008-08-19T01:41:00.001+08:00

Act cute 一
Act cute 二
Act cute 三
...........

Suddenly thought of this.

-hao

2008-08-18T01:05:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHENN.!

Enjoyed your day.?
Study hard for your exams ok.?
JIAYOU JIAYOU.!

-hao&Shany

*Click to see the whole pic. =)

2008-08-06T01:35:00.000+08:00

One day...
The day will come.

2008-07-17T01:51:00.002+08:00

Well,
I feel much better.
Finally, I've said what I wana say.
Have been keeping it for so long.
Study hard.

Joke of the day...

* If you kena beaten,
Who will you report?

HAHA.!!

-hao
01:55am
17/07/2008

2008-07-16T17:51:00.001+08:00

I've been resting for quite long.
Its time for me to continue to do what I planned to do!
Am I ready?
Are you ready?
=)

-hao

2008-07-14T01:26:00.002+08:00

From a friend's perspective.
That's what I'll be doing.

A true friend will always try to stand in your shoe to think,
Giving you two sides of opinion for a problem you say.
And not wanting you to do what you had decided at that point of time.
=)

Thanks to him,
I've been waken up once again.
Thank you.

-hao
01:53am
14 July 2008

2008-07-13T20:07:00.002+08:00

If I didnt message you,
If I didnt contact you,
Will you?

I sense that you're coming back.
Or am I thinking too much?

I miss you,
I love you,
Still.

2008-07-06T21:16:00.003+08:00

I MISS YOU.
Thats what I wana say if you're looking at my blog.

The sweetest us,
The loving you,
The caring you...

Where are you?

If you want me to remove the pic, please let me know.

2008-06-30T02:15:00.003+08:00

Will you ever address me as 'Boi' again?

2008-06-28T18:40:00.005+08:00

To my Gal:

I believe if you really want everything to go back to the past like what WE used to be,
You can do it.
Just like me,
I want everything to go back like how we used to be.
I keep telling myself,
Have faith in my gal.
Trust my gal.
My gal can make it!

And gal,
Let us,
Let each other guide you and me back to the past.
Have more faith,
More trust in this relationship.

You will only treasure things when only you lose it.
Yeep, I know how important you are to me.
I couldn't eat much,
No mood to do anything.
I will defiantly TREASURE you when I have the chance again.
I promise.

I will be waiting for you to message me, call me.
You know I will be very happy to receive.
Address me as 'Boi'
I will know what you mean.
Just to let you know,
My family will be happy to see you back to be their son's girlfriend,
To be my girlfriend.
I will be waiting for you to address me,
the word,
'Boi'

I love you.
What about you?
=] --> Its been 3 days since I used it.

[Trust me, Trust you.]

2008-06-25T23:08:00.004+08:00

25th June 2008.
The day I never thought of,
The day I'm scared of,
Finally came.
The day we became friends,
My closest friend.

Once I told myself,
If a glass break,
No matter how hard you try to stick back,
You will never get back the original piece.
There will always be some scars in between.

Now, she changed my mindset.
The first and only girl who can,
Who have the power to change.

I told myself.
As long as I still love her,
I'll get her heart back.
I want to know her,
Understand her all over again from a friend.

And my closest friend,
You are right.
Nothing had changed.
If you are meant to be,
WE will be back someday.

I hope everything can be back in the past like what we used to be too.
Read through the small letter I gave you.
And my friend,
If you want to,
You can do it.

A promise to myself.
Start my day by sending morning message to you,
End of my day by sending night message to you.

I will be waiting for you.

Your closest friend
TANJIAHAO

2008-06-22T13:49:00.002+08:00

Whenever I think of what you've said yesterday,
My heartbeat increase,
Worried, Scared.
Are you willing to stick back pieces of scattered glasses back with me?
I need you,
Forever.

Dear
You know,
You're just lyke the past me.
I'm the past you.
Whenever I think of this,
I laughed.
May be this is how I've been treating you in the past.
May be this is how you've been feeling in the past.
Retribution?

You are the only image appearing all the time in my mind when I'm awake.
When my handphone vibrate,
Everytime it vibrate,
I feel very very happy.
Hoping thats your message.

Haha.
Ya, I have to say,
May be you can see me treat you so good,
Writing all these 'shit' things,
Saying I'll blah blah blah....
Temporarily.

After awhile,
I'm back to my old self.
Agree?

Lyke i said,
我清醒了.

-02:19pm

2008-06-22T03:28:00.003+08:00

After everything,
I feel very insecure in our relationship.
I cant see any future.
I really dare not dream of our lil Family anymore.

Dear what happened to you?
Why would you ever say you cant even know will we be together in future?
You used to tell me confidently we will be together forever.

Are you feeling insecure in OUR future?
Are you feeling very sad, very unsafe because I didnt even know what I'm aiming?
Seeing me slack at home, asking money from my parents?
Instead of working?

I've reflected.
I'm really behaving quite childish.
As compared to you,
I'm very childish, as in Mentality.

Thanks dear.
After I heard what you've said to me,
About future,
I woke up.
I asked myself,
Why am I so lazy?
Why my Dear can even think much more mature than me?
Why would you said all those things to me?
Its time for me to really think, what I really want.

Last time when you asked me,
I will reply,
'I just want to have a flat, a simple car, a simple life in future.'
Whereby I only know how to say,
You cant see me working towards my goal.

May be you feel that you cant talk to me about our future.
Cause whenever you ask me what i want to be,
I'll say I really dont know leh.
May be you are thinking,
'Huh. Did you ever think of? Did you think of our future? Ain't you worry?'

Dear,
Give me some time.

I will start finding job,
Start working,
To really get the taste of it,
To see the reality.
In the mean time,
I will think.

Yes, I can see you study very hard for your future.
Yes, I dont study at home at all.
Yes, I said I will study hard,
I want to go to Poly.
But my actions show everything.
Did I even make any effort to achieve?
I'm asking myself this.

Dear,
If this what you want,
Telling me you may leave me in future because of working towards your goals,
So I will start to think too,
You DID it.

Dear,
Lets work hard for OUR future together.
Dont leave me behide can?
I know you dont want to make your parents,
Especially your dad to be disappointed in you,
You are working very hard.
I will be doing the same thing too.
I want to make my parents feel proud having me as their child!

Thank you so much my Dear!
At least I know its time for me to wake up.
If I dont work hard for what I want,
I'll lose everything.
For the sack of my future and OUR future,
Dont worry.
I've be waken up.

Dear,
I'm not saying for the sake of saying.
Not saying just to hope to make you feel better.
My actions will show everything.

After what happened these days,
It really make me realised,
How much I love you.
Dear will you love me?
Am I the one you looking for?
Working hard together towards our goal?
Thanks for everything.

[I've grown up again.]

2008-06-21T21:24:00.002+08:00

How I hope you are still with me.
I dont mind staying at your house.
Seeing you is more than enough for me.

This is the first time you say,
I prefer to be alone.
I hope is because I'm really over sensitive today till you Fan Gan,
Thats why you wana alone at home.

I miss,
MISS YOU SO MUCH!

2008-06-21T13:47:00.000+08:00

We are close,
Yet seems far apart from each other.
Why.
=[

2008-06-21T10:09:00.002+08:00

How long is this going to be?
My tears still rolling in my eyes.
Hold my hand tight,
Heal me please....

2008-06-21T01:58:00.007+08:00

Its getting further.
I missed the cutie you.
I still missed the Dear Tan.

I hope I'm still the one you will want to spend the time with whenever you are free.
Blame me for being selfish,
Thats because I love you.

The talk just now,
Think you are tired.
Theres pros and cons.
When you are tired,
you will say the true feelings.
You keep on asking me to accept the changes,
Its time to accept the changes.
Will you in the past?
What if I cant?
Thats very hurting.
My heart is still bleeding.
My brain is full of our wonderful past.

I hope to have another talk with you 2morow.
You have the time for me?
2Hours is enough.

I really scared things might went worst.

I will treat you the best I can,
Until the day which I really cant take it, I'll........
I dont know.

Do you really feel there is something wrong in our relationship?

I MISSED THE LAUGHTER WE HAD.
I MISSED THE TIME YOU HUG ME.
I MISSED THE TIME YOU WILL CHANGE TO MAKE ME HAPPY.

I really cannot take it anymore.
Dear I need you.

I'm sorry that I made you disappointed again.
But when you say you are disappointed,
Is it right to take your bags and wanted to walk away if I dont stop you?
If thats the case, I wont be sitting down,
Talking to each other.
I dont even care.

Whenever I'm free, I will always dream of our future lil future,
Our lil family.
How xin fu we are,
With our lil hao and lil Fang.
Now, I dont even dare to think.
My dreams have been scattered.
Are you willing to paste it back with me?
You are the only person who can paste my lil dream back.
And that is how IMPORTANT YOU, SHENN TAN YING FANG to me.
Seriously, last time I was still thinking,
Can I give up everything for you.
NOW, after this incident, I CAN GIVE UP ANYTHING for you. I'm very sure.

I know what is the feelings.
Yes you asked me to widen my circle.
I won't. I dont you to end up lyke me.
When I say I wont, I WONT.
You asked me why?
You keep on asking me to widen.
But I know,
When the time comes,
Its hard to change.
Dont worry, I dont expect you to restrict yourself, I dont want you to do that too.
I know what I'm doing.

I cant sleep.
I dont dare to sleep.
When I lie on my bed,
I start to think.

I scared, I really scared.
When i woke up, you will leave me.
Is not about trusting.

Let me tell you,
Even when a guy went to your house,
I dont even worried.
What I scared is,
How will he treat you.
And given this circumstances,
I cannot dont scared.

I trust you.
I've been trusting you.
Just that sometimes,
Its wrong to do so.
Worried is how I feel
Not Trust.

May be you should think,
How into you want to be in for a thing.
Just lyke photo taking,
You've forgotten about me.
What I feel is,
You feel more wanted to take with others.
You may say, hope to take at least 1 photo with you 2morow.
But your action shows everything.

I will show you how much I love you.
I will make you the most XIN FU the girl.
I dont mind getting hurt,
As long as you are happy,
I will be happy.

May be its time to ask yourself,
Am I the one you are looking for?
I asked myself this before,
My answer in my heart is,
Yes, I've already found her since she, we were attached to someone.
I have already wasted 1 to 2 years.
For not being able to tell her,
I LOVE YOU.
Ever since she accepted my request,
I have already decided,
No matter what happens,
She is the one I want to be with,
FOREVER.

Please dont take anything for granted.
I scared if everything I give in,
You will expect me to give in more in future.
As in expect me to change, accept the changes,
Rather than may be sometimes,
you have to change back instead.

I dont know how much can I take,
I'm trying my best.
What if I cannot take it anymore?
I cant take all the changes?
Are you willing to change?

Till now,
I still blaming,
If you didnt attend CIBTC,
Are we still very happy?
Will it be better?
Forgive me for saying so.

Do you still hope,
Hoping to have another 24hrs or even more with me again?
As much as before?

My personal thoughts.
Friends are temporarily,
DEAR are FOREVER.
Thats why I treasure you much more than anyone.

Promise me,
I'm the only person you can think, miss of every moment,
Even when you are sleeping.
Can you?

I dont want this relationship to last.
LAST to me is only keeping it as long as possible.
I want it to last, FOREVER.
YOU HEAR ME? FOREVER!

2008-06-20T00:48:00.003+08:00

Everything's changes.
I used to be e one you wish to spend whenever you have e time.
I used to be your everything,
Now?
There are alot of things i want to tell you, share with you my happiness, my saddness.
Do I have e time?

I didn't blame you for anything.
I'm weak.
I have to be stronger.
I'm tired.
I'm lonely.
Where are you, my DEAR TAN!
I'm lost..
I love you.

2008-06-19T01:42:00.002+08:00

I MISS NCO CAMP,
I MISS YOU.

Heal from e wound!

Posted from my phone. Haha! Ok nitEynite!

I'm tired

2008-06-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

I'm Tired.

Laughing outside,
Dripping inside.

2008-05-17T18:21:00.002+08:00

Well, theres a lot of things i wana blog.

Firstly, HAPPY 20TH MONTH BAOBEI TAN!
Our everlasting loves!!

I got my license on 13rd May 2008 with 8 demerit points.
Dont know why after getting license your heart are stick in your car.
Whenever you wana go out, you feel lyke driving.
Worst part, your parents still dont allow you to drive on your own after getting for 4days.
Even worst, when they go for work and did not use the car, they take the car key out too.
Leaving the car at the car park for the whole day.

Who were actually VERY happy when i passed my TP?
when i told them i've passed?
My dear, my bro, my sis (Joc) and my sisters.
What about my parents?
Well to me, esp my mum,
May be they are happy.
But i believe 'Finally dont have to spend money for his driving again.' they feel happier for this.
Can you imagine when i reached home and i told dad i wana go down PASTE the P-plate,
Guess what?
He scolded me.
OMG. PASTE. Not even driving.
Well well well.

Seeing my bro driving alone with his family car,
I really feel happy for him.
At least it show that his dad have confident in him.
When will be my chance?

Is not that i dont have confident to drive alone.
Haiz.

-Class 3 holder_hao

=P

2008-02-11T00:57:00.000+08:00

10th February 2008.
Almost a year since I update my blog.
A new beginning BUT a BAD starting for me.
Mum suspect she got a illness.
I asked 2nd sis do she know about it.
She told me when mum received the letter she called her str8 to tell her.
She say until lyke wana cry.
Do you know how sad i am when i heard this.
Mum, I really hope u will be alright and I BELIEVE nothing will happen to you!
I LOVE MY MUMMY! =(

What can I do?

Dear Tan, do you know how much i miss you everyday, when you are not with me?
I HATE the time when you are not by my side.
I know you won't ever leave me.
I will never ever leave you too!
I'm sorry if I'm a lil moody recently.
Whenever I think of mummy...........
I MISS YOU....

- Just wana be happy everyday,
With my smile on every second when I'm awake.

2007-04-16T23:04:00.000+08:00

16/04/2007

happy 7th month dear! its a special day for both of us.
happy birthday to us~
yeah, we are still loving as before, now even more loving ba. = )
dear, u are a wonderful dear! nothing gona change my love for u de dear! i will love u forever, i swear!

2007-04-06T00:56:00.000+08:00

06/04/2007

first blog in 2007...

Well those who know me well enough, recently keep on playing maple, dont even have time to do other things. dear i know u must be very lonely whenever u come to my house right. coz other than watching me playing maple theres no other things u can do right. SORRY dear TAN! as long as im isnt on 2x, ill accomppany u de k.

Do u all know that... i have a very understanding dear. she will always try her best to play what i played. she will try her best to cheer me up whenever im sad, missing me every second, taking care of me even shes sick.... Dear we have been together for 6months plus le, u know i always believed that in a relationship, after the first three months, conflicts will sure appear BUT u are one and ONLY one that can able to make me realised that it isnt true. i am kinda suprised that till now we haven had any conflicts before right? 6months plus le... thanks dear for everything u have done for me. ILOVEU! no1 can never replaced u in my heart.

THE ONLY TIME I WILL STOP CARING FOR U IS THE DAY I STOP LOVING U BUT IM SURE THAT THE DAY WONT COME CAUSE IM GONA LOVE U, FOREVER!

Inside my heart theres only a english name, SHENN. And a sur name, PHUA. No other letters has to power to overwrite it. The one and only, Shenn Phua...........

-hao
01.23am
06/04/2007

2006-11-12T13:01:00.000+08:00

haha. 2nd sis just called me, ''hao le ma? later dont go out le ho. huh, got work ar, dont go la. come here get MC. ok, bring medicine go ar. take care.'' haha. ill update again if any.

2006-11-12T12:35:00.000+08:00

hiya. haha. long long time no update le ho. keke. well well, 6more days my dear jiu can lai fan wo everyday le! keke.

yesterday, haiz. having fever sia. u know, when i reached home, i told dad im having fever then he just say ask mum for medicine but mum sleeping sia. so. i hate this feeling, lying on my bed alone, feeling helpless. mayb not used to it ba. coz everytime fall sick mum or dad hui look after me de. hmM. then dont know lie till what time, i heard mum sound coming out from the living room. u knwo i high i was. keke. then she walked inside jiu asked me take medicine. i dont know y sia, ting dao ma de sound wo zhen de hen happy. keke. when i woke up this morning, wow.. much much better le. keke. thanks mum! ohya, sorry dear. i no reply ur message last night. coz really very xin ku. dont angry k, forgive me!

dad call back just now, ask me about something. then b4 he hang up, know what he ask? ''ni fa sou hao le ma?" i dont know why a simple ''ni hao le ma'' can actually made my day. thanks thanks!!

lastly, keke. thanks to those who sent me message.

my dear, wanting, yingying and.... guess!! WILSON LIM! suprised, really. haha. and thanks bro for sending me home yesterday. = )

2006-09-16T23:28:00.000+08:00

~160906~ nice right? haha. i will always remember this date! wahaha!

finally, the day i have been waiting for...

2006-09-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

''i just want to have a simple life, No worries, troubles to control over my life. Just want to stay happy everyday, with my smile on every moment when im awake.''

dont know why i lyke this sentence sia. haha. i wrote it myself de. keke. hmM. wow, its been long since i last blogged. haha. we left with 18days. seriously, till now, wo hai shi no have bao wor in my N level. gal, thanks for teaching me today. am i stupid? haha.

seriously, i have changed--if anyone notice. i dont want to be a liar anymore. no worries guys, what i promise u b4, ill do it. = ) and gal, i hope u trust me sia!

opps, sis wana use le. haha. 2morow update? haha. hope so!

still waiting for your call...

-hao
11.24pm
15/09/2006

2006-09-02T02:07:00.000+08:00

well, N level coming le. i still haven study. JIAHAO, whats wrong with you! i know, a lot of ppl are looking down on me. thats included my mum blah blah. i feel lyke crying. why am i so stupid?! and the only answer i found was because i didnt put in my best in studies. haiz.
-hao

2006-08-24T01:11:00.000+08:00

guys, i hope u can spend some time in waiting for my song to be played. its a nice so-hopefully.

im tired le. will update 2morow.

good night!

-sad hao
01.08am
24/08/2006

2006-08-24T00:39:00.000+08:00

UNFAITHFUL
-

Story of my life

Searching for the right

But it keeps avoiding me

Sorrow in my soul cause

it seems that wrong

really loves my company

Hes more than a man

and this is more than love

the reason that this guy is blue

the clouds are rolling in

because I'm gone again

and to him I just can't be true

and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

and it kills him inside

to know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Everytime I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be...

a murderer

I feel it in the air as

I'm doing my hair

preparing for another day

A kiss up on my cheek

He's here reluctantly

as if I'm gonna be out late

I say I won't be long

Just hanging with the girls

A liar didn't have to tell

Because we both know

where I'm about to go

and we know it very well

cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

and it kills him inside

to know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
a murderer

His trust

I might as well take a gun and put it to his head

Get it over with

I don't wanna do this

Anymore (anymore)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah

-------------------------------------

2006-08-07T00:26:00.000+08:00

obviously to me, im not trying to get your attention or attitude u from what i blogged. well, i think next time ill just keep my mouth shut. its really sad that when u are trying to cheer ppl up, that person is angry with u. ya, i overdoing it. i said what i shouldnt say. maybe thats me, my character. its not easy to change. sometimes, it just slip out of my mouth. for wanting's things, its not what u are thinking. well, nvm. im dont wana say le. and ya, do u think that im always waiting for u to say sorry to me? if so, let me correct u, IM NOT. dont always say im always waiting for u to say sorry. ya, i agreed that after each of our conflict u are always the one who will be saying that first. its just that, every conflict, u are angier than me. the face u're showing blah blah. enough le. no mood to write. one of my reflections--> I will just shut up to prevent more conflicts. u know, i wouldnt control my jokes. and PLS dont say im making a fool of myself.

back to my day..

most enjoyed moment:
the time spending with her.
ya, hmM. laughter was heard blah blah. then only studied for 45mins. haiz. didnt even study dao english. ill make use of 2morow morning time to study. wow, so late le. good night guys!

-hao
01.07am
07/08/2006

2006-08-06T13:37:00.000+08:00

Most enjoyed moment:
(not yet over)

hmM. spent the whole morning helping my bro make his blog. haha. i'll link him so if everyone is curious, go his blog ba!

till now, eating cup noodle. its already 01.36pm le. i still haven start study. i keep hearing chenyee start studying le then make me so nervious. haiz! I CANT FAIL MY N LEVEL! hao, whats the use of saying? action speaks louder than word!! okok, i gonna study now. I WONT FAIL MY N LEVEL!

-hao
01.40pm
06/08/2006

2006-08-06T02:26:00.000+08:00

Most enjoyed moment:
fetching 2nd sis home from punngol park there. sis stood behind my bike. during our windy journey, we talked a lot of things. we still say when we reached home, dont make any noise, quietly walk in blah blah blah. still say where she went to just now. Sis, i know actully u are very sad de coz every year u go see fireworks is with weiqiang but this year.... i see u so sad i also hui feel sad. really. if u happened to see my blog, i just want to tell you, try to forget him k. he's not worth for u to wait, sad, hurt. i hope i did brighten up your day. i realli enjoyed our journey! smile k!!! = }

well, when bathing, i planned to start off sayign when was my enjoyed/happiest moment of the day. hmM. ya, things just wouldnt turn out what we are expecting. its full of obstacles. anyway, after a night, theres always a new hao. a hao that wont feel sad because of somethings which happened before that night. this what i promised to myself.

bro, u know just now i went to your house, actually i was quite pek cek. coz i was lyke disturbing from u all doing something. lyke im invisible. alone using com..... ya, next time when i want to go to your house, if theres your friends, just say u're busy can? coz.... i dont lyke the feeling of being alone.

hmM. i gona sleep le. very tired. ohya, bro... dont blame yourself k.. feild cooking, the car incident blah blah... its not your fault. for field cooking, everyone knows u tried your best. zai wo de xin lee, feild cooking shi 1st de!! so, cheer up k. smile!!!
good night guys. cover blanket, sleep tight!!!

-hao
02.41am
06/08/2006

2006-07-25T22:42:00.000+08:00

haha. 2months? sorry guys (theres only a person who knows) haha, anyway, ya, sorry sia. so long no blog le. haha.

wow, today morning-- sad lor! imagine mr sim-- one of the d&t helper keep saying my things. from 8 till 9 lor. keep saying my things 99.9% cant work de. wl. then after then was sitting alone, talking to mr ruj lor. hai. sad sia. but felt much better after talking to ruj, thanks man!

after sch jiu went to meet up my godpa at foodcourt with wilson coz he accompany me to sinta(bugis). godpa treated me a watermelon sea me loo. haha!! funny ar. hmM. after eating wilson and me jiu took bus 80 to sinta. hmM. bought sometime for bro. haha. 2morow passing to him. not present. s SMALL SMALL thing. but i think he need it ba. hmM.

after taking, i brought wilson to my fav. place, i always go there to eat if i got go bugis. his the fifth person i took. bro, when is your turn? haha.

jiu took 80 back to hougang mall met them up again. hmM. now waiting for bro to eat finish. haha.

nitEynite everyone. muacks!

-hao
12.56am
26/07/2006

2006-05-31T01:37:00.000+08:00

just realized u still contacting with him. hmM. whats the point of keep saying he very fan de blad blah... are u trying to show that u are popular? ooOo. ya. u are indeed popular, YES YOUR ARE. 5th OF MAY 2006. wow. why are u hiding this from mi? wei le ni, i give up on how many frendz le. whoever u said b4 who who who likes mi, i always will stop contacting her. hmM. it seems like i aint getting the same thing. well, i noe wat to do le. thanks to myself!

WHY!!! MISSED THE OLD LIFE I USED TO HAVE. A NEW HAO, JUST WAIT AND SEE!

2006-04-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

was very very fan just now while doing my english homework, listening to music from phone.. then dun noe why suddenly thought of ALL the past.. a hp, a mind and songs can actually remind me of the past.. feel lyke crying.. then awhile jiu go kitchen, look outside the window for awhile.. haiz.. and i thought of my computer, thinking maybe some ppl can cheer mi up in msn so jiu went to switch on my computer le..
without disappointment, is i find him talk first ba.. nvm, then found out that he dun noe we are going for the interview, somemore he is not working today.. because i was quite diappointed that he didnt message us to wish us.. i believed if bro knows that we are going, he should will go with us de.. right? hmM.. anyway, everything were fine..
reached the school, dun noe where to go.. jiu stand at a corner for some time until a cadet came and bring us to the loo to change.. after changing, we proceed to the library cause the interview will be held inside the library.. then saw the AC.. she damn fierce sia.. gave us a fierce look then me and she jiu started saying the AC.. so we waited outside the library.. then a cadet jiu came to me and told me that AC said that those who are wearing white fame spects will be immediate failure.. that means that the AC was saying me as im the only one who wear white fame spects.. so b4 going in i took off my spects..
inside the library, the AC seems to become another person, she would smile to us.. thats when we know that, wow, shes not that fierce.. haha.. then AC asked me a question, "IF YOUR CADET ARE KEEPING LONG HAIR, WHAT WILL YOU DO?" i knew that shes saying me.. then i told her that i will give the cadet a chance.. then she jiu say then i oso give u a chance too.. then i jiu gave her a reason why i didnt cut my hair.. think she wont believe..
ask, ask, ask jiu finish le.. when i stepped out of the library, they say i spent very long inside.. haha.. then me and her jiu go change to our mufti..
hmM.. wasn't that scary.. i can say thats my one of my most confident in talking le ba.. somemore with two officers who i didnt even see b4.. if realli didnt yet, ..... will disappointed but...... its ok.... so, yea...
if u have the leadership, even if u are not a SI, people will know it.. a leader doesnt need a high rank to let ppl envy them..

im still feeling quite sad, realli dun noe why.. haiz.. is this how life is? hmM..

i just want to have a simple life, No worries, troubles to control over my life. Just want to stay happy everyday, with my smile on every moment when im awake.

2006-04-23T02:15:00.000+08:00

i will remember thisi day, SEE WAT ASS

2006-04-16T02:26:00.000+08:00

today slept untill 11.30am, woke up le jiu online till evening when haolin suddenly called mi and asked if i wana go bbq at harmony park ma. at that timr i realli no mood to go so told him after finish then give mi a call then see wana go out ma. then play games till 6, rk called mi and asked mi the same question-- wana go ma? haha. he keep asking mi to go then ended up promised him go. haha. he jiu said he wana go walk walk with his frendz first around 8 then call mi. keke. by the time he call mi, i jiu no have the mood to go le so jiu told him dun wan go liao. he lyke very sad lor. then asked mi wana go out talk talk ma lor. so.... haha. pei him go 327 coffee shop xiao bain. haha. then took a blah before going. hmM.
i knew if i got go out, i surely hui go bbq de so.. haha. jiu went there lor. anyway is at harmony park nia ma. haha. reached there they all jiu say where so late then come. haha. jiu eat eat eat, actually didnt eat much la. just a hotdog. haha.
we jiu play a card game called BANG. haha. very nice! gonna search this card game le. haha. then jiu blow cake. haha.
after blowing we play police and theift. haha. childish ho? BUT i enjoyed playing. haha. play awhile jiu play murderer, using poker card. haha. play till 12 something they jiu say tired le so all jiu went home le.
then i stand at haolin's bic. hejiu ride mi all the way back to lower. haha. first time i standing wor. haha. then feeling veri fan he jiu asked mi to say out all my xin shi. hmM. then at the track he cycled many rounds lor. haha. see him lyke cant take it liao i jiu say i ride he stand. haha. first time lehz, then i a bit scared. haha. then i jiu asked him to say out all his problems lor. say say say, ride, ride, ride.... reached home jiu already 1 something le. haha. hmM.
i enjoyed the time with haolin. dun noe why also. hmM. thanks bro!

2006-04-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

when i heard that song, i'll think of u.. i'll miss u so so much! realli, how i hope u are beside mi as im feeling very moody now.. whenever i didnt see u online, i feel very lonely.. i tresure the time i got to see u, chatting with u(sms, msn, live), with u.... but sometimes u just dun seem u wana talk to me, ignoring me..

please, PLEASE, spend more time with me, i want your care, your everything.. i hope i can ......., u noe.. whenever i ......, i feel lyke...... PLEASE!!!

2006-03-23T00:05:00.000+08:00

last time to add before i go sleep..

suddenly thought of my ex class-- 3HOPE!!! well, one of my happiest times was with them sia.. still rmb that time taking class photos then i stand on thier legs.. haha.. chalet... haiz... yeEpZ.. I MISS U ALL GUYS!!! althought i am in 4joy now, i still will rmb hopeZ de!!!

1hope 2hope 3HOPE!!!

= } = ) = > = ]

2006-03-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

urgh.. i still haven do finish my d&t.. im stressed... think i better go bathe the sleep le ba... im tired.. see you all guys soon...

RANKS!! RMB~~~~````

2006-03-21T19:40:00.000+08:00

well, firstly, i wana start off by saying... WO HEN FAN!!! yea, veri stressed! thats y i'm updating my blog, hoping my stress-ness can fade away.

gradually, naive. haha. hmM. think i better go bathe first then jiu do my d&t le. 2nite then update again.

2006-03-20T00:08:00.000+08:00

hmM. nice blog, actually just changed the address onli. think might be changing the skin. coz new address= new blog! must have something new ma. haha. this march holidays, slacking at home. thursday to thursday having. friday went out to search for present plus preparation for her birthday. saturday, all day celebrating her birthday. sunday--today, she came to my house. hmM. this how my holidays end with...

firstly--CAMP!! hmM. its a VERY memorable camp. I MISS THE CAMP! to all coordinators, well done! i didnt see much problems with the camp except the time management. well, i must say a thing. if a camp didnt really happen anything things right, ya, its good BUT on the other hand, the corrdinators wont learn much things from the camp. just liked my NCO camp. if the last day the test paper was not ready, i wont have the chance for my brain to work, to think what to do next. but no matter what, GOOD CAMP GUYS!! as well as the NCOs. the camp wont be a success 1 if u all didnt participate and put in efforts in your activities. = }

friday.. nothing much to say. went out with haolin. then walk till 4plus he said he cant stand it le so i jiu go bought lor. then iu went home le. at home till 8plus went out with desmond coz need to collect the cake and roses at hougang mall. after collecting jiu came back home again. waited till 11 went out with haolin again. reached her house downstair at about 11.30pm. shocked that still got 30mins more so jiu sat at a table talk talk lor. 11.58 i started lighting up the candles, call her hp, asked her looked down. hmM. then ju walked up to 5th storey to give her the cake and roses. after giving jiu went off with haolin le. we went to a place near houang CC to sit down. afetr burning 2, he jiu cant take more le coz he not feeling well. then i jiu carry him all the way home. well, must say a BIG ''THANK YOU" to haolin. he not feeling well still pei mi go sia. thanks!

saturday, met her at 12.45pm. was kinda late. coz im doing other things. went to town. first time wor. bring ppl go town walk walk. then jiu went to takas... to have our lunch. after that paragon. walked walkde awhile jui sittin the e top-est storey. sat sat awhile she jiu suggested to go sing k. then thought of hougang cc de k so jiu went there. hmM. sang a lot of songs ba. at night agar 8.30am, we reached my house. then i asked her to drag open mu curtain. while she was dragging, i switched off the light. who knows, the stars light glow. coz i sticked "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" on a black board then the glow in the dark stars didnt glow. sad lor. hmM. then jiu went to have dinner with mum, dad and bro at e kitchen. after eating, she went to my bed to have some sleep coz she was not feeling well.

today, sunday, met her at 9.30am. came to my house till 2.30pm jiu went out le. went to bedok to bought her shoes. hmM. our lunck was long john silver. then took bus back to her house. when reaching, found out that her spects dropped onto teh ground and when i picked up, her spects was totally..... my fault so after sending her back, i took bus to hougang mall to make the spects then back to her house again. after giving her jiu went back home le. woos, finally...

well, i didnt study for this holidays. haiz. what if i really failed my N? urgh!!
its late. will be updating 2morow. =)

2006-03-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

N-E-M-O NEMO O MOMOMO
S-P-E-E-D SPEEDZ IS WHAT WE GOT
NEMO NEMO (clap)*2
SPEED-Z SPEED-Z (clap)*2
NEMO SPEED-Z (clap)*2
SPEED-Z NEMO (clap)*2

NE NE NE NE NE MO MO
MO MO MO MO MO NE NE
LA LA LA LA LALALA NE. . . . . . . . . . . .
NEMO!!

Comments during Sec1 Camp

BAD!!

Must have a line in between CIs and my post during training.
Not enough respect to the CIs.
Don’t get too emotional with NEMO – when its time to give up, give up.

GOOD!!

Did well.
Confident level went up.
Instructor’s life, --NCOs too!

REFLECTION!!

Don't get too involved with my group next time.
Don't spoil the fun by scolding -- Can change the tone of scolding the cadet.
Tone, if I can bring the tone like how I scolded the Sec 1 to the Sec 3, I would be better.
The way, the TONE I talk to the CIs during NPCC training must change!!